This Thursday I will have my uterus removed. Whilst I'm totally enthusiastic about the benefits of my bodily functions returning to normal again, having my uterus taken out feels like a tearful goodbye to an old dear friend. So dear friend I decided to write you a letter.......
Dear Uterus,
Please don't be upset with me. The Doctors have decided that our time together has come to an end. It wasn't really my decision, simply a medical necessity.
You see you took a real blow back during the delivery of my first baby and never really recovered after that. You managed to carry Bailey for a full 9 months without any sign of trouble and then Bailey decided to get stuck when exiting from you, causing more pain and damage than I care to mention. Of course following up that birth with the birthing of a baby weighing in excess of 9 pounds was never going to do you or your fellow neighbours any good either.
You managed to carry another 2 babies after that, for which I will be eternally grateful for. My life would not be the same without all 4 of my beautiful healthy boys and it is you that made that possible (of course a bit of help from an obliging father helped too!).
I thank you from the bottom of my heart for the services you have provided for my body. Unfortunately though in order to help your fellow neighbours with their repairs and subsequent healing you will be leaving us for good.
So farewell my dear friend. From Thursday morning you will no longer be around and I will miss you forever. xxx
For the last twenty years I have felt like a woman. My breasts increased in size, hair grew more abundantly in more feminine places and from the day my period started I knew there was always a chance that I could fall pregnant and have a child. Whilst my breasts and hair will undoubtedly remain, those periods will never be returning. And to that I say.........
HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well written Ang <3
ReplyDeleteYou are a beautiful human and your recovery will be sweet due to this. I had a hysterectomy a few years ago without experiencing the wonder and beauty of childbirth or even natural healthy sex. Yes there will be physical pain for a short time, for me it was nothing to the pain and sadness of never experiencing that wonder and beauty. Im alive right? No regrets i keep reminding myself but, i do allow myself a whole lot of 'what ifs' and tearful moments even now. You have 4 beautiful treasures, Bless ya beautiful heart in your surgery and recovery beautiful lady.
ReplyDeleteThanks very much Alley. I'm sorry to hear you never got a chance to have your own children before your surgery. I realise how very lucky I am that I have my 4 beautiful boys and I try my best every day to not take it for granted.
ReplyDeleteThe pain has now subsided and the recovery is close to complete. In time to come to pain will be a distant memory and I can experience all the advantages from it.
You go girl! Be all that you can,You deserve it.I'm not weird Lol, but I do gain from a mothers enjoyment of her children no matter the obstacles, so it's all good here.
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear that you were blessed with 4 boys. I am a personal fan of the 4 boy group as I am the mum of 4 of my own, ages 12.5, 9, 6 and almost 3. They are wonderful. I hope you are still physically healing well.
ReplyDeleteBest wishes
Jen in NSW
(who used to live in Brisbane - Springwood, Wooloowin, Nundah, Morningside, Tingalpa and Manly)